February 21st, 2020
During sex, if I’m with a dominant male, I’m compliant and obedient
and I enjoy that very much
Especially if I trust him and feel connected It’s kind of like being high
As I write this, ass plugged and a bobbie pin on my clit per your instructions, it has been just shy of a month since we began. And it feels both ridiculous and perfect that I am here now, arriving of my own free will at a destination I would never have anticipated, guided by your hand, but every step taken on my own.
We met by chance and your handsome, smirking face. My side relationships were drying up and I went fishing on OkCupid for a new lover. I had been pondering exploring BDSM , something I had always been interested in but never had the guts to really try. And a few recent sexual experiences had confirmed that I did enjoy power play, both as a submissive and sometimes as a dominant. You clearly identified yourself as a Dom and we began talking.
“The good news and the bad news” as you put it, was that you were away, far away and would be for a long time. I have never accepted a long distance relationship. I want flesh and touch and chemistry. But….I didn’t have anything else to do and you were interesting, compelling and I decided it would do no harm to keep talking to you. Maybe I would even learn something.
In the beginning you made several missteps with me. Reading our texts, I understand now why you asked about my sexual preferences so early, but at the time it felt abrupt and intrusive. You almost immediately began sending me obscene sexual images and having me rate them in terms of desire from zero to five. I playfully accused you of data gathering and making a file on me. I also consented, telling you “I will play your game”. Of course, now I know you don’t need a file because you used all of that information immediately to begin training me. And I would grow to love your game.